I feel refreshed today! Had a busy weekend of catching up and errands....Emily had her first soccer practice...loved it...Matthew sat on the ice again at skate lessons....i was able to get some scrapbook shopping in...finished a layout...met with Ki to do some shopping and went for dinner...thanx again girl...the boys had fun at her house...so much that Nicky didnt want to leave ....even though he was scared of her 3 pound dog!

So...I dont really want to bring this subject up...but I am going too....only because in the last month or so.....this has been an issue...a BIG issue. DRAMA......drama drama...it is everywhere lately. On the message boards, in the scrapbook world...i have had enough of it! So much so... that i have lost respect for people who i called friends. There always seems to be a ring leader of sorts. It amazes me how people cant think for themselves anymore..... or how people will act one way in front of someone so they dont get mad at them .....and then another way behind their backs. I am not in freak'n high school anymore....i am not scared of what people are going to think of me...either you like me for who i am ...or dont like me at all...i dont care if you dont....i dont need for everyone to be my friend....i need just a few to be sincere and true.....and just because you think you have all these friends...dont kid yourself...when it really comes down too it ...they are not....just because you talk to them on a message board or at crops....or whatever...doesnt make them a friend....unfortunately in our society....as sad as it may be.....most people think they have all these true friends when indeed...you dont! They are just people with a common interest.

So stop kissing ass....stop being nice for the sake of someone else...be nice because it is the human and decent thing to do....you dont have to attack people..but do be civil....i have realized in the last month who my true friends are in my scrapbook world....and i am glad that i was able to see the true colors of these people....not that they did anything personal to me....but to fellow friends or scrappers....it was enough for me to re-think my relationship(s)...i dont want to surround myself with this type of person.....i want to surround myself with strong.....full of life...true to themselves people! Not ones that hide behind other people...cant act or think for themselves....who act fake or phony...have to have everyone be their friend.... kiss peoples ass....be competitive....be tit for tat about things....always need praise to validate who you are.....so if this describes you...please dont bother with it....i have been out of school for almost 16 years....and i have no desire to go back now.

So with that said... to my friends...and you know who you are...i love you for who you are and appreciate your friendship. I may not always be the greatest friend always isolating myself from the outside world.....but I do appreciate you more then you will ever know. You always think of the littlest things that always put a smile on my face.....you seem to go out of the way for me when i least expect it....you pm or email me kind words and encouragement....and no matter what....you always tell me the truth...you dont let me sulk too long when i throw myself a pity party....and you are better to me then i am to you...and for this i treasure you!

Have a great monday ....i know i will!! :o)