Saturday, May 06, 2006
Well we are now on day 6 of 19 days straight of watching somebody else's kids. I am getting so burnt out right now. So burnt out that I am just mentally, emotionally and physically a mess. I haven't been walking/running....I feel so gross..I have been so stupid and giddy at home.....I have been short and in attack mode with friends.....but it is noone's fault but mine. I need to set my boundaries and just learn to say NO to people! Today I have 3 kids to watch....this is MY weekend to recover from the weeks events! Ok my fault,so why am I whining? Because I want to and I can!
I have learned a few things this week. Friends do come and go quicker then I thought.What I thought was something really wasn't. That you can't trust not only your enemies but your friends who can just be a wolf in sheeps clothing. That watching 10 kids in your home doesn't really help pay the bills it just jeopardizes your sanity.That it is very easy to lose who you are in one conversation. That you can be held prisoner by a position you hold. That despite what others think or feel, that there is someone out there that does appreciate me, my creative side and who and what I am. You are the only person who will ever understand who you are so don't expect anyone else too including your family and friends.There will be people who will assume that this is about them and there is nothing I can do about that.And finally Money is the root of all evil especially if you don't make enough!
Hope you all have a HAPPY SCRAPBOOK day....today is National Scrapbooking Day. I know I wont... watching three kids can kind of put a kink in your scrapbook time....my day will start at 2pm and end at 1am. It will be nice to meet Renee this morning to run out to a local scrapbook store....that will be my scrapbook fix!
So here is to the start of a new day....and a hopefully a better week.
8:19 AM
Tammy.
